I don't get my body

I've had high blood pressure since 2018, I've been taking medicine because I've had to and even with that I am at best able to get to 130/90. I've been told that's just going to be my norm and that's okay as long as it doesn't fluctuate too much. Now I am running really low for me like 95/65 the last few days. I know below 90/60 is a too low zone so I am keeping an eye on it but I feel like just when I start to accept my weird ass body it goes and throws me a curve ball and I am just over it. Maybe I need to stop my meds (I won't do that until I talk to my DR). Who knows, I am tired of this wonky body.