I hate going to the doctors

I even hate phoning to make the appointment. I feel like I'm being a nuisance and I know that's silly coz the doctor is there to help me. I start getting anxious the day before I make the appointment. Then I'm all hot and sweaty by the time I hang up the phone after doing it. It's also worse if I have to go alone because I'm extra anxious. I get a taxi coz my social anxiety struggles with buses. I struggle to remember everything I want to ask the doctor even though I've rehearsed it countless times the day before. Then when I get home I have a complete meltdown with a panic attack coz my brains on overload. I have an appointment today but luckily my boyfriend has one too. It's a relief that we can go together but I'm still way too anxious.