Helpless and scared

My dad might pass in hospice any day. I'm really struggling to accept it. It's been only one month since diagnosed aggressive cancer. And I've felt such an injustice that he could not get any treatment or chemo. They said it would have killed him sooner because he's so compromised as it is.

Life can be wonderful and magical. Yes. I'm very grateful. But then it makes you MAD because some things are just so unjust or unfair. I wish I could accept this experience he's going through 🙁And having PTSD already I don't know how high my anxiety will be when he leaves 🥺