Helpless and scared

My dad might pass in hospice any day. I'm really struggling to accept it. It's been only one month since diagnosed aggressive cancer. And I've felt such an injustice that he could not get any treatment or chemo. They said it would have killed him sooner because he's so compromised as it is.

Life can be wonderful and magical. Yes. I'm very grateful. But then it makes you MAD because some things are just so unjust or unfair. I wish I could accept this experience he's going through 🙁And having PTSD already I don't know how high my anxiety will be when he leaves 🥺

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ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

It is unfair and angering. All of your feelings are justified sweet lady. You have a big heart so it breaks big too. I promise you will get through to gentler days.

Keep holding his hand 🖤

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@ScreamingFox I guess I have to remember he's not fully gone just his body. And his spirit is gentle too , and will be in me always. Thank you Fox♥

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@Baybreeze exactly. He is still in there and that energy doesn't just disappear when the body quits. Even if he's not with you in body he will be in spirit. I promise 🖤 you got this

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@ScreamingFox Thank you so much 🌸