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I'm so anxious waiting to hear a call of my dad passing

He's in hospice, and has been in one week as of today. But he's dehydrated for sure, barely taking a few sips of water a day. Although he's been having two Jellos a day which is nice. It's very small for a normal person but I read peoples digestion in hospice shuts down. So they barely eat day to day, if not nothing.
But even though he had Jello today and talked for a few minutes before being so weak again and napping, I know he could pass any day. I'm trying to prepare my mind to not be panicked if the nursing home calls. But it's so hard. I have anxiety disorder and PTSD so I'm fearing how I'm going to feel or be. I'm not on meds, I can usually eventually calm myself in tense events, after a while. But no one this close to me has passed before. I'm just so on edge and helpless he could not have had treatment. 🙁 (Cancer too rapid)
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RodneyTrotter1 · 100+, M
I know it's hard because I went through exactly the same 17 months ago until I finally got that call, 7:20am so I knew straight away what it was, no one calls me at that time of day.
Try to put the dread to the back of your mind and instead, cherish ever moment that your dad is here, don't let that dread spoil your precious time with him 🤗
Baybreeze · 41-45, F
@RodneyTrotter1 It's tough Bec I had to leave him hours ago due to a snowstorm. I told him I'll see him tomorrow. I just want one more full day. I hope for it so much. Hospice isn't there on weekends which doesn't make sense to me. The regular nurses at the home give his morphine and walk out. He needs prompt to eat the jello for dinner...when I'm there he eats it slowly. If I'm not there no one is doing it on weekend. I truly hope he makes it until tomorrow. I have cherished today yes, even the short hour I was there. Ty Rodney 🌸
RodneyTrotter1 · 100+, M
@Baybreeze Your situation is so similar to how mine was and my heart goes out to you.
Considering he's so close to the dreaded time, it would be good if the home could offer you accommodation overnight so you could devote more time to being with him. some do but most don't.
Here's hoping for a better tomorrow 🤗
Baybreeze · 41-45, F
@RodneyTrotter1 Thank you, I'm sending the universe a request for one more full day, or a miracle.