I am getting to that point
About a year ago I really lost control and I was in a horrible place. I wasn't eating. My OCD was out of control and I ended up in the hospital for a while.
Well I weight is less now. Joel is scared. My buddy is scared. Yes they ganged up on my last night. They don't want me to end up in the hospital again. I didn't do well there for a while and things got really bad.
Since we believe we have any meds under control right now it's time to really focus on me eating.
During the week is crazy. We both work full time. We're raising 3 kids. We busy with their activities, and needs I get hyper focused on that. Their needs come first. As soon as I finish something I need to move on to the next thing on my list and I don't stop until it done. I don't stop to eat, use the restroom, drink nothing.
Like I said I'm in a bad way again. I will end up in the hospital or worse if I don't get this under control. I'm afraid.
But knowing I have the problem isn't the issue it's knowing what to do to get myself help. That's what we're struggling with.
The worst part is Joel will even ask me did you eat and I'll say yes I did but it was a small bite of what I was cooking so I could test it for the kids. But I ate something so that's what I tell him.
So my buddy is coming over tonight and we're going to try and come up with something. What I do know. But we have to come up with something fast.
Well I weight is less now. Joel is scared. My buddy is scared. Yes they ganged up on my last night. They don't want me to end up in the hospital again. I didn't do well there for a while and things got really bad.
Since we believe we have any meds under control right now it's time to really focus on me eating.
During the week is crazy. We both work full time. We're raising 3 kids. We busy with their activities, and needs I get hyper focused on that. Their needs come first. As soon as I finish something I need to move on to the next thing on my list and I don't stop until it done. I don't stop to eat, use the restroom, drink nothing.
Like I said I'm in a bad way again. I will end up in the hospital or worse if I don't get this under control. I'm afraid.
But knowing I have the problem isn't the issue it's knowing what to do to get myself help. That's what we're struggling with.
The worst part is Joel will even ask me did you eat and I'll say yes I did but it was a small bite of what I was cooking so I could test it for the kids. But I ate something so that's what I tell him.
So my buddy is coming over tonight and we're going to try and come up with something. What I do know. But we have to come up with something fast.
