Support group tonight

Well tonight was much easier for me to go. No panic attacks no anxiety. I just knew we needed to go. I didn't share but Joel did. To listen to his story and struggles as a teenager and young man was powerful. He has his eating disorder under control but he works at it. He never misses a group until our lives go so busy. Listening to him talk tonight I knew us going back wasn't just for me, but for him too.

After the meeting we got that sour apple vodka he wanted and two nice cigars and we went to a park. It was perfect. We sat on a bench, he enjoyed the drinks way more than I did, we talked, we laughed, we even cried a little. It was just what we needed.

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HowtoDestroyAngels · 46-50, M

I'm glad the support group is working for you. I am having a lot of problems in my life right now, most notably my health and my job. Although I don't drink anymore or attend AA like I did in the beginning (It's been almost 12 years now), I am going to start going to a counselor to help me out. It's offered as part of my Employee Assistance Program in my insurance. I figured that I need to do something to help me quickly because I am starting to feel like I'm going insane. Again, good job for you, my friend. Even though you didn't talk, listening seemed to be the key.

Cigarguy101 · 41-45, M

@HowtoDestroyAngels I hope you do. It really helps me. I haven't shared yet (that's some dark trauma I'd be talking about) but it's good to know you aren't alone. There are others that are struggling or use to struggle. It's good to hear them talk about what works and what didn't. It's also good to hear that they failed and picked themselves up again. When I fail I beat myself up over and obsessed over it. I am working on it. And it might sound silly but my goal for doing something for myself everyday is helping. Taking that early walk, listening to music and not thinking about everything I need to do feels so good. Maybe something like that would help you

HowtoDestroyAngels · 46-50, M

@Cigarguy101 I give myself at least two hours a night to listen to music or walk. It seems to be helping too. Maybe I should do something else? My wife has been my support group so far.

Cigarguy101 · 41-45, M

@HowtoDestroyAngels if it's helping keep doing it. Maybe add to it, like have a special drink or snack while you're listening to music or walking. I'm glad your wife is there for you. I couldn't do this without Joel, but sometimes it good to talk to someone that is there for you but doesn't love you like a partner does lol. My therapist will sometimes say something and I'm like wtf but it's something I need to hear. Sometimes I know Joel wouldn't say.