Sitting down at the table

To eat a meal is a huge trigger for me. My tics and outbursts are so bad. I get so anxious and I just can't do. So Joel and I are trying to figure out ways to either cope with this or find ways to get me to eat more. I really think to much time was been wasted on my self care today and I'm just over it. But I gotta figure out a way to eat! This is my struggle and I hate it and I just don't even care!