I Have An Eating Disorder

Today I completed a 16 hour fast. I’m trying to cope with these negative thoughts the healthiest way I can, so I started intermittent fasting in replacement of total restriction. It has been HARD. I am TRYING. It worse because I am fighting ALONE. Hidden from everyone, I’ve masked this as a simple diet. Counting calories, and macros. Weighing each bit of food I put into my mouth and logging it into my tracker. I’m trying to keep this healthy, I’m trying to use the coping skills I’ve learned, but it’s too easy to fall back into the same rhythm.

My husband and I went out to eat tonight. Of course, I chose the healthiest option on the menu. Even then, I feel full and scared. I feel disgusted and want to purge so badly but I’m afraid nothing will come up, that I’ve lost my touch. This is getting too much to handle.

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ExperienceDLT · M

Be careful doing that it is very unhealthy and can lead to other health issues

Montanaman · M

@ExperienceDLT She knows this. 😔🤗

ExperienceDLT · M

@Montanaman my aunt was bulimic she ended up hospitalized cause she got so sick from it

Montanaman · M

@ExperienceDLT I'm sorry. 😔🤗🙏

ExperienceDLT · M

@Montanaman thank you I just wouldn't want to see anyone else make themselves that sick

Montanaman · M

@ExperienceDLT me too, I've dealt with it with both family and friends. There's absolutely nothing we can do, but hope they "get it," sooner than later, when it could become too late. It's up to them, and Only Them.