don’t ever date me

i sort of relate to this tbh

Your not a monster at all dark longings , your just very insecure in yourself .
And if your insecure over past situations happened in your life that made you feel insecure , then try deal with it .
Your never alone with all off this stuff what you explained .
I ended up in pysche ward for 6 weeks over toxic relationships , i wasn't to blame for most of it .
I can see now how i ended up there over the relationship. I didn't pull out too soon enough , a lot of lies , cheating, gaslightening on her side and i didn't pull out too soon cause i was trying to fix it , buying love . I can see the part where i was selfish . It was if i fix i"ll be ok emotionally and it was the relationship in the 1st olace that got me emotionally unwell .
Im single now 13 years and im happy out at times that way and will i tell you why i wouldn't go out with someone right now at the time cause i wouldn't want to be pushing my insecurities onto her and also im not prepared to end up in a pysche wars again over the pain of it .
I thought i could handle any relationship, how wrong was i , so your not alone my friend and don't be putting yourself down cause they'd be plenty that would so that to you .
My friend said me years ago " be your own little lamp " do you know what that means "be your own best friend " and thats a tough one especially all your life you were dependant on other people views of you to feel good or be valued so when you go against " be your own best friend " over other peoples views , that intakes a lot of pain .
Just incase your wondering why i messages you all the time when im on this site is to insure you your not alone with all of the stuff you described and i do care about you , even tho im from Ireland .
The loneliest time when you think your alone happens mostly at night time .
I hope you be ok

You're not a monster. It is hard when you have that kind of attachment style, and recognizing is it the first step to changing it 💙

I know it feels awful to discover these things about ourselves, and even worse is the real distress we feel because of it

But talking about it with your partner can help, and also talking about it with people you trust to help ground you. I would also highly recommend DBT therapy if there is a program available in your area 💙

Talk to your partner openly. Real talk without filters.. make them understand your suffering but before that listen to theirs.
Emotional strength has to be there between the two to give each other in the hour of need.
***Get done with your strong headedness.

It is worth the endeavor to have such a timely realisation on your part. Now, work on yourself to smoothen stuff in your life.

Best.

: me and all of my friends 😂 we don't suffer from it we enjoy it, the right man will too 😁

I always thought you were super sweet and understanding.

you sound like you have made for some interesting stories

ok so we found the problem nipped it in the bud, (no one likes hanging with a monster) on the other hand lots of people are nt quite so picky , bonus

That right there will make you tolerable for at least a year or so. Goes a long way.

It's true, bi polar psycho types are some of my all time favorite types

Oh ya!

🥵

You're not a monster.

Did you realize these things yourself, or are these his words to you?

You aren’t a monster.

You are realizing what’s going on though do you can make changes.

That is growth.