Some partial bitterness

Seems a jerk move to initiate that conversation right before that special day.

I wouldn’t try to gaslight yourself by suggesting that special days alone that you’d rather have spent in supportive, loving, celebratory company somehow shouldn’t feel lonely. Humans are social creatures and community oriented. It’s natural to want to celebrate with people.

There are also lots of people out there who don’t want children. I have a number of friends who are in relationships without plans to procreate. They love their work. They love their freedom. They would be unhappy to shrink either of those by creating a dependent. It’s not weird to want a partner without motherhood in mind. It does seem like something you’d wanna mention sooner than later though in future dating because for people who do you want children there’s a limited amount of time to do that.

{@elafina] 😔 sorry to hear you have split up maybe the best thing as you should not be forced to start a family if you think the time is not right and if he is not prepared to wait what sort of boyfriend / husband does that make him

Everything doesn't works the way we thinks. Firstly you just need to be comfortable with what you think, how you feel and what you do. We can try our best to make the things in the order we wanted them to be.

All the Best !!

Happy nameday! Hiking and swimming in a lake are beautiful things to do. I understand the bittersweetness you are feeling, though.

That's hard. Just a hard all around thing. No ones fault, just one of lifes difficulties.