Your belief is your own choice. For me, I believe in a world without a god.
That the world is neither just nor fair.
My world view does not afford blame for problems without understanding or admittance of being unable to do so. It means I'll be in a difficult place when I'm all alone ot in dire straits, which will happen from time to time.
However, my belief in a world without god allows me to make decisions with only my morals and understanding as guidance. Something I think all people do but avoid acknowledging the consequences of their actions by using god as their blindfold. That if they use the bible as the rule book, everything therefore mus be just.
I work in a position where my choices affect peoples lives. If I don't understand why I do something, I can't understand my choices in high impact situations. That means I can't affect my outcomes positivly. If I followed just the bible, I would be broken from the stress and trauma. If I am free of it, I am free to find a better way.
Maybe try some other philosophy. Mans search for meaning by viktor frankl is good. The karamasov brothers, Cats cradle and even some fantasy books can press ideas into difficult spaces to find your answer. And good stories heal a hurt heart.