To all the Christians in the group...

Idk, lately I’m feeling like the way I’m relating to god is doing me more harm than it should. I suppose that’s on me, but I’m also sick of feeling like everything is my fault or my responsibility. The past few days I’ve set myself in a spiritually responsibility-free mindset and I feel a bit better.

Lately, my walk has been all over the place. I make so many stupid mistakes - say and do things that I understand, but no one else necessarily does. I'm sure I say things that are hurtful, but I don't mean them that way. I mean them in a humorous way. But I'm the only one who knows that.

At least I'm at a place of recognizing what I do, but what I've done comes to me only much later. In the moment I do what I do, I'm too unconscious to realize it. I know it's the work of my old survival system trying to protect itself from extinction. I just need to be more mindful of my actions, and conscious of what comes out of my mouth.

But, until I can be, it makes me not even want to be with people anymore. I need to stay away. I don't trust myself.

There has been a progress, but at times, it becomes stagnant.

I wear the armour of god as I walk thru the shadow of death… 😇

It’s going ok. I’m getting more consistent.

why is there only this post asking ? 🥹

Upwards and onwards.