I pushed away the man I had seen a few times. I figured I'd end it now instead of letting anyone get too attached. There were things that didn't feel right. Mostly him moving too fast without taking the time to get to know me. There was almost no curiosity about me at all and I was getting exhausted asking all the questions.
More than anything, I'm tired. I don't have the energy to be available to someone and I wanted to be upfront.
I haven't fully recovered from the bad situation I was in for years. Though I'm happy with my progress, I just need time.
I want to focus on enjoying nature and taking good care of myself for now 😌
I'm simply enjoying my walks and getting life sorted out after working seven days a week, losing my elder, then summers being full time Mom. I am exhausted.
I look up at the trees, listen to the wind in the leaves and the bugs singing... Thinking to myself, this is what I got, it's pretty great and I'll make the best of it.
It was a very lazy day. Mostly rainy. My son and I made hand pies for dinner. I'm still full.
Candles are lit, my skin is happy, sheets are fresh, dog by my side, stretched, gua sha, red light. Another day I've given my best. I can sleep well knowing that. I wish you all the same for yourselves. Do something nourishing.
Parallels again. Feel much the same relationship wise. Too tired to put effort into it and need to work on myself. Incense burning, candles lit, football on for backround noise and showered plus massage oil. Sleep well, it’s our life to live our way.
