That's a sad situation to be in. I think you know that the drink will not do anything to help, but I understand why you might feel desperate enough to turn to it. Take care of yourself and perhaps confide in a friend about how things are going for you.
@FreddieUK I talked to a friend who's also a recovering alcoholic, so I went for a drive instead. Now I'm gonna eat and put on an André Rieu concert on youtube. (Again)
