Should I go to Detox?

dude, a few weeks ago, I was tired and delusional and felt like ending it all, with a gun to my head (teue story; even posted it on herr), ready to end it all. not even thinking about the daughter I was going to leave behind. and I wasn't posting for attention when I did. just like you, I was venting outloud, seeking advice. I know that this doesn't relate to your situation; I'm just trying to somehow relate. I'm relapsing on giving people what they want, need, deserve out of other people and then short-change them in return. that process can be a "drug", too.

I don't have any advice. I've given up on being charismatic and optimistic lately. I've lost many jobs because of habits and a distorted mentality that got the best of me. even that's a "drug" too. mentally find yourself, where you want to go and who you want to be. that process is going to be HARD AS FUCK, and you will slip, trip and fall. it's legit going to happen. and you have to accept this. that's a part of the process of recovering. you will be distracted. but overall, be the person you envision yourself being as you recover, to be the person you want to be as you recover.