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I Am Bipolar

If you have Bipolar disorder like me, then let me know your thought. So I am at the point in my life were I want to start looking for love, and this is my first time. So I am scared more then most people who start. I am scared my bipolar disorder will mess everything up. Yeah everyone has a soul mate out there for them, if they love me then they can deal with it, and all that but I am scared because it takes time to find the right person now matter what. I am scared that if something bad happens like I have a episode, too soon then no matter what no one will stay with me. Or if I tell them too soon they will leave me. Starting relationships and having Bipolar (no matter how controlled the disorder) is very scary. So let me know if you BP and how was starting relationships worked with you?
SugarRush · 31-35, F
As an ex wife to a man with bi polar I can't stress enough how you need to a, look after yourself and b, be honest with your partner. I was/am very supportive of my ex but there's only so much love can do. After 10yrs I stopped supporting, accepting and excusing him because he wasn't helping himself and was instead abusing his family.
As you're likely aware, having bi polar isn't just highs and lows (I wish it was). My ex is now an alcoholic who I have saved multiple times not just from drink and self harm but financially and socially too. I left because not only was he a danger to me but also to our children all because he wasn't honest about things and didn't take responsibility for his health like substituting his medication for drink or drugs, refusing to attend appointments. There's one thing being ill but using it to get your own way or to treat others badly is another thing. (Not saying you do just speaking from experience).
There will be a "one" out there for you. I know it didn't stop my love for my ex but you have to be honest. You have a medical condition just like anyone else and shouldn't be ashamed/frightened of who you are or others. (Those who are worthy will accept you regardless). I loved my husband for his passion, his ability to make me laugh and like a lot people with mental health illnesses - his intelligence, the problem was he neglected himself. Know your worth and to remember to know theirs too because we struggle with you and understand more than you realise. Best of luck.
saintsong · 41-45, F
I have schizo affective disorder that's like having bipolar and schizophrenia together....and my husband loves me! He says that I'm not just any nut, I'm his pican! I also had a relapse on my family doctor he stayed for 2 years before he left because it was him triggering it and he was hurting me, now that it has gone dormant I believe he might accept me for who I am. I worked very hard to be sweet and innocent during that time so that I would be blameless so that I didn't burn any bridges even though he had to go he can still come back when the storm subsided.
Madelenie · 26-30, F
That is so beautiful! May I ask how to be sweet and innocent all the time? Did you take meds to controll the metal stuff?? I mean I kiinda lose control easily sometimes...
saintsong · 41-45, F
@Marshmallow: I've always loved being a sweetheart its who I wanted to be since I was young....Christianity reading my bible taught me how to be innocent by going and sin no more....seriously I can hear heavenly music as I type this....yes I am on meds which help me physically but most of it was a lot of self control and watching my words and being very positive during a fiercely difficult time.
Madelenie · 26-30, F
I have bipolar and I am in this relationship for about 4 months now. Yes it was pretty messed up. I had my episodes already, the longest argument period I had with my bf was about 2weeks, he had been driving up the wall so much by me. However, gladly he stayed. This is a bless which I'm very grateful of I'd say. Even so, I still think I'm an unstable burden to him every now and then..

 
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