I Am Bipolar

If you have Bipolar disorder like me, then let me know your thought. So I am at the point in my life were I want to start looking for love, and this is my first time. So I am scared more then most people who start. I am scared my bipolar disorder will mess everything up. Yeah everyone has a soul mate out there for them, if they love me then they can deal with it, and all that but I am scared because it takes time to find the right person now matter what. I am scared that if something bad happens like I have a episode, too soon then no matter what no one will stay with me. Or if I tell them too soon they will leave me. Starting relationships and having Bipolar (no matter how controlled the disorder) is very scary. So let me know if you BP and how was starting relationships worked with you?

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saintsong · 41-45, F

I have schizo affective disorder that's like having bipolar and schizophrenia together....and my husband loves me! He says that I'm not just any nut, I'm his pican! I also had a relapse on my family doctor he stayed for 2 years before he left because it was him triggering it and he was hurting me, now that it has gone dormant I believe he might accept me for who I am. I worked very hard to be sweet and innocent during that time so that I would be blameless so that I didn't burn any bridges even though he had to go he can still come back when the storm subsided.

Madelenie · 26-30, F

That is so beautiful! May I ask how to be sweet and innocent all the time? Did you take meds to controll the metal stuff?? I mean I kiinda lose control easily sometimes...

saintsong · 41-45, F

@Marshmallow: I've always loved being a sweetheart its who I wanted to be since I was young....Christianity reading my bible taught me how to be innocent by going and sin no more....seriously I can hear heavenly music as I type this....yes I am on meds which help me physically but most of it was a lot of self control and watching my words and being very positive during a fiercely difficult time.