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I Hate My Parents

My Child Hood



I was born in Indonesia. I have Chinese heritage but I hate my parents and siblings. I hate it where I was born and grew up.

My dad only worships money as a God. He is an asshole. He can only be happy when he insults other people, this is including me. He does not treat me as his child because I am a female. He believes a daughter only brings bad luck in the family. Half of the Chinese population favour a boy than a girl. They demand a daughter should solve all financial and other family problems. He started to hate me when I reached 12-years-old. I only had 2 t-shirts and 3 pairs of trousers in my wardrobe. He said he was embarrassed to have a daughter like me because I was pregnant when I was 16. He said he should have strangled me when I was a baby. These are the bad ass attitudes of Chinese men (or women). I know he has never forgiven me, but I will never forgive his bad ass attitude and behaviour.

I saw him hit his wife when I was 3-years-old. Every time my mom said something against him, he had to punch her. My mom got black eyes and cried so many times. I grew up with listening to expletive words every day. It hurt very much to live within that kind of family. Every time he had problems and stress, he shouted and swore and he blamed us for his mistakes. We are not allowed to make mistakes, but he allows himself to make them and then he blames us. I hate him very much; I want to torture him while he sits in a wheel chair!
He changed my mom so she has bad ass attitudes like him. My mom is an idiotic woman. She has never stood up for us when our dad violently hit us and she (unreasonably) blames us for everything. She supports his bad ass attitudes and behaviour. She follows all his instructions to treat us unfairly.

I was 9-years-old when their marriage finally finished. Dad threw a glass at my mom while she was washing her hands in a basin, but the glass didn't hit my mom, instead the basin broke and caused a big hole. She took my youngest brother away but she left me and the eldest son to live with a monster! They separated for a while. I took all my saving and went to visit her. I knew she must need money, but she didn't seem grateful to have a daughter like me. She had decided to go to Singapore to start a new life because somebody offered her a job for $1500 a month, but she threw the opportunity away by returning to the monster. What an idiot?

I want to revenge. I want to see them suffer, I will use my legal power to make them suffer. I will call the government to freeze their money and property. They cannot share their will without my signature. I know they will try to fake my signature but if they do, I will sue them.

I will never let my mom step into my house. I will make sure she stays with her two beloved sons.
berangere · 80-89, F
Sadly some culture encourage abuse of women and children and if a narcissists happens to be the head of a family he certainly milk it for all it is worth.I am so sorry you had to go through all this,I had it tough as well but not as tough as you did.You are a survivor and you know the greatest of revenge is SUCCESS if you succeed they certainly will not like it,put all your energy in being the best you can be,try not to waste energy in hating them because it can really wear you out.You do not have to forgive them and do not let anyone tell you that you should,some things are just not forgivable and you do not have to help them either should they need your help and you do not have to feel guilty about it.But taking active revenge might hurt you as much as it will hurt them.Life has a way of turning around and meting its own punishments this is what is called "poetic justice" and plenty of that has happened in with my own "family" I did not have to do anything life did it for me,and I accomplished far more than all of them put together and that really got their goat!! So concentrate on accomplishing what you are capable of,put your energy in that and see what happens.Take care.🖖
Arrow17 · 46-50, F
Thank You@
Adaydreambeliever · 56-60, F
Phew tough childhood and you show us exactly WHY so called traditional households where the man is in charge and can do whatever he likes, including be violent to the women and children are BAD.. ALL they cause is anger, resentment and unhappy women who feel powerless and unable to change anything.. Your mum was that way.. she would have been raised to obey her husband, to support and back him.. she knew he was a monster.. which is why she escaped.. but she and you were badly damaged by his actions by then.

I hope you manage to get your revenge.. more importantly i know you know what happened was wrong.. so i hope you use that knowledge to find happiness.
Arrow17 · 46-50, F
I tried everything to make peace with them but they just wankers. They will not change so I stop to believe they will accept me or feel grateful with my deed. I hate them in my bones.
SW-User
I'll never understand why parents have this "preference in their child's gender." It really doesn't matter. Daughter or son, it's your fucking kid! I am really sorry you had such shitty parents.
SW-User
It's them, not you. I like girls! I don't see anything wrong with a daughter..
Arrow17 · 46-50, F
@Resilience: I am going to throw all of them out of the street when they find out my address. They are not welcomed in my home.
SW-User
@Arrow17: I don't blame you.
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Arrow17 · 46-50, F
@OWTFWN:I hate them. I want to give middle finger to the woman who does not deserve to have a daughter. I want to torture the man who is an asshole in the family.

They should feel lucky I did not take knife to stab them multiple times. I was thinking to murder them.
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Arrow17 · 46-50, F
@OWTFWN: I do not feel the pain. I make sure they are not going to enjoy my success.
You need to forgive. Forgiveness is better for your life. Hating them is not worth it. You were hurt as a child. I'm sorry. I hope you are able to forgive and move on and make a happier life for yourself. If they are toxic then there is no need to have them in your life. Hating them still gives them the power to keep your life in misery. In order to be at peace...you have to forgive.
livesincar · 41-45, M
well pay a street punk to kick his ass. sounds like he is asking for it
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Arrow17 · 46-50, F
In my life, I have never did something so powerful. I think this will be a good chance for me to show off to those wankers.
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Arrow17 · 46-50, F
What wow? If you have a supportive family you will have to support them back.
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Arrow17 · 46-50, F
VenusSnow,

I am making hate to rule me so what is your problem? I do not have false identity. I am who I am. People do not like me I do not care. I have free will, this is the reason I make the decisions. I am not going to compromise with their attitudes and behaviours. I do not have personal problem with my self. I am thankful turn to be a strong person. I make sure my revenge is going to be happened. They love money, I will attack the part that they always worry about. I do not want their money, I want they suffer.
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Arrow17 · 46-50, F
I am who I am. I know exactly which direction I go.
I spent many silent nights under 30 year old with tears, griefs and regrets. I did not know what I did wrong why they so hate me. I got the answers, they value me from how much money I can make. I do not want to make peace anymore. I make sure I borrow the authority hands to attack their finance. I do everything to make me satisfy.

I know all my relatives will say something bad because I will not attend the funerals. I am not going to see their faces anymore and I do not need their helps to put my food on the table.

 
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