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I Have Body Dysmorphic Disorder

I would not wish this on anyone. I hate myself. I hate that I can't be perfect. I hate that I can't accept that no one is perfect. Body dismorphia is torture. I think I am fat when I am barely 100 lbs. thankfully I am not anorexic. I've had moments. I think I am ugly with my acne prone uneven skin at 23 and it just isn't fair that I keep struggling with it. I go NOWHERE without makeup. I would have a breakdown because of my acne I am disgusted by it. It's not even cystic or severe but to me it's hideous. This is just my latest obsession. I convinced myself I had cellulite last year when there was nothing there. I want so badly to talk to someone who has these same issues. If you don't live with this disease you can't understand. I look in the mirror every day and pick myself apart. I've tried counciling.....they don't get it. How do I let go of these thoughts? They consume and control my life. I want to be free
ruzgar · 22-25
I had that..i think.Self-hate is hard and you can't just get rid of those thoughts,i know that.But i would still recommend professional help.Not all doctors are gonna be good at their job!Well,actually i feel like many of them just waste your time because they want 💰.Even good ones can't just magically cure you,they can just help you with recovery and learning coping skills.Remember that.And recovery will be painful and it might feel like you are just taking 1 step forward,99999 steps back at first 😬...Also books about self love(i can lend you mine 📚) can be helpful and maybe some instagram accounts about BoPo(body positivity)&self-acceptence.Cuz they are very inspiring/supportive and you can meet people like you.Which is good,cuz you won't feel alone
ruzgar · 22-25
Umm well yeah,but its much more serious than that
SW-User
Oh of course it is it's horrible
ruzgar · 22-25
If you ever need to talk,i am here.Even though i am not a good listener at all,but i will try
SW-User
I understand how you feel. I can name a 1,000 things that's wrong with me including fat, ugly and dumb. But I can name one thing that's perfect about me. I have a huge heart just like you and that's the most beautiful thing in the world.
Tatsumi · 31-35, M
Sounds tough. Good luck. If you really want it, you can find a way to fix your perception. Imo, if you want to let go of those thoughts, you need to understand what they are motivated by. Where does this need for perfection come from? Why is it so strong? What in your past has made you think this way?

Where does this desire come from? How can you let go of the desire for perfection?

As the Buddhist's Four Noble Truth's say: life is pain. And the source of that pain is desire. Manage your desire, and you manage your pain.

To me. It is simply a faulty thought process. We are all quite prone to them. With enough thought, it can be reversed. That's what I believe.

As for councilors. There are a lot of bad ones. Or, as you say, ones that simply do not understand. If you continue trying new ones, you will eventually find one that can help--if only a bit. One will eventually be able to help you work through these questions. But, no one can fix you. You are the only one who can do that. If you want to be free bad enough, you will obtain freedom.
MrBrownstone · 46-50, M
Surround yourself with people who love you. No one is perfect. But you are perfect to someone.
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irishblue · 31-35, M
I feel so sorry for you and I hope you find a way through this 🌹
loveIy · 26-30
Stop hating yourself and being so negative. You're the only reason why your life is bad
SW-User
i really just need to know if there are people who truly understand .
@JenaJenaJena: Do you have a diagnosis?
Sabrina01 · 36-40, F
@JenaJenaJena: surround yourself with positive people that are going to support you. I would look into getting a therapist that can understand your situation. This is something that you can get through. It's just going to take some hard work. You're to young and beautiful to have a sad face
MrGoodbar · 51-55, M
honestly just take a deep breathe relax and live minute to minute right now
Newandimproved · 61-69, M
sorry for your pain

 
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