I Am Broken Beyond Repair

@Alisha. Nope. Sorry. It was fair. You seem to be giving up at a VERY young age because of some momentary dip in the road. Do you have your eyes? Can you walk? Food to eat, a place to live? I told you the truth. Want to feel like shit? Tell yourself everything's shitty. Want to feel good? Tell yourself everything's good. THAT'S the way you control your destiny.

Most every person on earth feels despair once in a while. It's part of the human condition. So if you're looking for online hugs that's totally fine. But I'm a realist. They won't come from me. There are too many people in the world who TRULY have no options and face problems people like you and I can't even fathom. They get my compassion. Best of luck but, ultimately, you're on your own. Just like every other person in the world.

Great attitude! There's NOTHING better to insure misery than to tell yourself you'll always be miserable.
21-25, huh? Yeah. Life is pretty much over at that age. Might as well piss away the next 70 years. It's not like things change or anything when you get older.

Sal, that was not needed. Maybe you are one of the lucky ones who have never been depressed to the point of not being able to see the per verbal light at the end of the tunnel. Those who have can understand the despair. It's a process to go from I never to I can. It takes more than a day.

If you want to talk I'm listening. I lost my husband about a year ago. The love of my life. I have a little boy who turns 2. I know the pain. Like a hole in your heart

All I can tell you is don't give up hope. You've already got a relationship with your little girl and that's a start. Sometimes healing takes time.

I struggle with depression.And the best advice that i give to myself is.To remember that life is a test and how we deal with the situation,makes our grade.Don't give up on dating.You need love like everyone else.The right one will come along.Keeping in mind of the ones that didn't work out.Stray from the commonality that they share.
The hardest thing to overcome is heartache.Give yourself some time.Learn to love yourself again while keeping yourself busy.

I am also a counselor. I mainly deal with at risk you. When PM's are available maybe we can talk more in depth. When I lost my husband, to me, life was over. Ian is the only thing that kept me going. I still have struggles. But they can be minimized. Keep going for your baby girl. Don't completely rely on meds. They are not for everyone. Don't be afraid to get second opinions. I worry about the people who put their patients on meds after only one visit.

Yeah. I've tried. I just don't feel like I'm worth the effort. This isn't the only bad thing that's ever happened. I've had much much worse. I just feel like if only bad stuff (excluding my little girl) happens to me how am I worth it? How am I worth anything? Obviously I'm doing something wrong... that's how I feel. But I try and be helpful all the time and take care of everyone around me so I can't seem to understand. If I'm so nice why does this keep happening to me?

I have tried everything I can think of to change. And I have already strayed from my normal type of guy. And he's the one who just left saying he didn't want a family but he still loves us and then got with someone else less than a week later. I started working out trying to make more friends taking my daughter out more cleaning arts and crafts new job... literally anything and everything I can think of. Nothing has worked.

I got put on meds a long time ago. They just think I need a higher dose. I will want to phase out of them eventually but for now I think it couldn't hurt anything. I'm sorry you lost your husband. I can't imagine what that is like because I've never been married. I mean I did lose someone but it was their choice they weren't forcefully taken from me.

If he walked out on you and your daughter, you are better off without him. There are things within your power to change and some you need help with to make that change. Keep your focus on your little girl while you work through everything. She gives you the motivation to keep going, bit there will come a time where you have to find the motivation within yourself.

Your words are powerful.
I will never do this
I will never do that
thus, you never will.
Remember, If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got.
You are unknowingly using what's called the 'Intention Process'. Google it. I assure you that you have the power to change your life in a day.

I went through the emotions of whatever bad happens to me I deserve. But I didn't. And neither so you. Take one positive at a time. Build on one and hang on to it. Make a list of good and bad that happens each day. See how many of the bad you can take control over. Take control one at a time.

Thanks alisha. And I am working at it. I've been this way my whole life and it just keeps getting worse. I started going to counciling my first appointment was today, I've been on medication since I had my little girl... they are talking about me needing a much higher dose though.

Alisha, I would be happy to talk. He didn't pass away he just left us. But it does feel like everything was ripped out of me and my daughter is upset too. He doesn't even care what he did and that's the worst part.

Thank you. I'm trying but that is a helpful suggestion I hadn't thought of yet.

Try it for a couple days then let's talk about the results.

Really nice Sal. You missed your calling as a motivational speaker.

I'm not watching or eating anything. Literally

You can always work for the post office.

What is broken and why?