I Am Broken Beyond Repair

I struggle with depression.And the best advice that i give to myself is.To remember that life is a test and how we deal with the situation,makes our grade.Don't give up on dating.You need love like everyone else.The right one will come along.Keeping in mind of the ones that didn't work out.Stray from the commonality that they share.
The hardest thing to overcome is heartache.Give yourself some time.Learn to love yourself again while keeping yourself busy.

Yeah. I've tried. I just don't feel like I'm worth the effort. This isn't the only bad thing that's ever happened. I've had much much worse. I just feel like if only bad stuff (excluding my little girl) happens to me how am I worth it? How am I worth anything? Obviously I'm doing something wrong... that's how I feel. But I try and be helpful all the time and take care of everyone around me so I can't seem to understand. If I'm so nice why does this keep happening to me?

I have tried everything I can think of to change. And I have already strayed from my normal type of guy. And he's the one who just left saying he didn't want a family but he still loves us and then got with someone else less than a week later. I started working out trying to make more friends taking my daughter out more cleaning arts and crafts new job... literally anything and everything I can think of. Nothing has worked.

I got put on meds a long time ago. They just think I need a higher dose. I will want to phase out of them eventually but for now I think it couldn't hurt anything. I'm sorry you lost your husband. I can't imagine what that is like because I've never been married. I mean I did lose someone but it was their choice they weren't forcefully taken from me.

All I can tell you is don't give up hope. You've already got a relationship with your little girl and that's a start. Sometimes healing takes time.

Your words are powerful.
I will never do this
I will never do that
thus, you never will.
Remember, If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got.
You are unknowingly using what's called the 'Intention Process'. Google it. I assure you that you have the power to change your life in a day.

Thanks alisha. And I am working at it. I've been this way my whole life and it just keeps getting worse. I started going to counciling my first appointment was today, I've been on medication since I had my little girl... they are talking about me needing a much higher dose though.

Great attitude! There's NOTHING better to insure misery than to tell yourself you'll always be miserable.
21-25, huh? Yeah. Life is pretty much over at that age. Might as well piss away the next 70 years. It's not like things change or anything when you get older.

Alisha, I would be happy to talk. He didn't pass away he just left us. But it does feel like everything was ripped out of me and my daughter is upset too. He doesn't even care what he did and that's the worst part.

Thank you. I'm trying but that is a helpful suggestion I hadn't thought of yet.

You can always work for the post office.

I'm not watching or eating anything. Literally

What is broken and why?

@Alisha. Nope. Sorry. It was fair. You seem to be giving up at a VERY young age because of some momentary dip in the road. Do you have your eyes? Can you walk? Food to eat, a place to live? I told you the truth. Want to feel like shit? Tell yourself everything's shitty. Want to feel good? Tell yourself everything's good. THAT'S the way you control your destiny.

Most every person on earth feels despair once in a while. It's part of the human condition. So if you're looking for online hugs that's totally fine. But I'm a realist. They won't come from me. There are too many people in the world who TRULY have no options and face problems people like you and I can't even fathom. They get my compassion. Best of luck but, ultimately, you're on your own. Just like every other person in the world.