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[饾悘饾惌饾惉饾悵] 饾悆饾惃 饾惒饾惃饾惍 饾悶饾惎饾悶饾惈 饾悹饾悶饾惌 饾惀饾惃饾惉饾惌 饾悽饾惂 饾惌饾悺饾悶 饾悷饾惀饾悮饾惉饾悺饾悰饾悮饾悳饾悿饾惉 饾惀饾悽饾悿饾悶 饾惌饾悺饾悶饾惒 饾惏饾惃饾惂饾惌 饾惉饾惌饾惃饾惄?

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I used to have it many yrs ago...not anymore.

Sorry to hear that! 馃ズ That's terrifying...you should have reported him to the cops. I hope he's not doing the same thing to some other girl now....
[@372543,Vivaci] 饾惉饾悺饾惃饾惍饾惀饾悵 饾悺饾悮饾惎饾悶? 饾悞饾惃饾惈饾惈饾惒 饾悰饾惍饾惌...饾悺饾惃饾惏 饾悵饾惃 饾惒饾惃饾惍 饾悿饾惂饾惃饾惏 饾惏饾悺饾悮饾惌 饾悮饾惀饾惀 饾悺饾悮饾悵 饾悺饾悮饾惄饾惄饾悶饾惂饾悶饾悵 饾惃饾惎饾悶饾惈 饾惌饾悺饾悶 饾悳饾惃饾惍饾惈饾惉饾悶 饾惃饾悷 饾惌饾惏饾惃 饾惒饾悶饾悮饾惈饾惉 饾悽饾惎饾悶 饾悰饾悶饾悶饾惂 饾悵饾惈饾悮饾惀饾悽饾惂饾悹 饾惏饾悽饾惌饾悺 饾惌饾悺饾悽饾惉.. 饾惒饾悶饾悮饾悺 饾惂饾惃 饾惏饾惃饾惁饾悮饾惂 饾惉饾悺饾惃饾惍饾惀饾悵 饾悰饾悶 饾惌饾惈饾悶饾悮饾惌饾悶饾悵 饾惌饾悺饾悶 饾惏饾悮饾惒 饾悽 饾惏饾悮饾惉. 饾悢饾惂饾悷饾惃饾惈饾惌饾惍饾惂饾悮饾惌饾悶饾惀饾惒 饾悽饾惌饾惉 饾悮 饾悳饾惃饾惀饾悵 饾惏饾惃饾惈饾惀饾悵 饾悮饾惂饾悵 饾惉饾惃饾惁饾悶 饾悳饾惃饾惄饾惉 饾悾饾惍饾惉饾惌 饾悵饾惃饾惂饾惌 饾悷饾惍饾悳饾悿饾悽饾惂饾悹 饾悳饾悮饾惈饾悶, 饾惌饾悺饾悶饾惒饾惈饾悶 饾悮饾惉 饾悵饾悽饾惈饾惌饾惒 饾悮饾惉 饾惌饾悺饾悶 饾悮饾悰饾惍饾惉饾悶饾惈.
rainguy41-45, M
Yes! Especially if I hear certain songs from way back. The mind says, "stop what you're doing and now I'm going to make you relive the past"
[@593738,rainguy] 饾惌饾悺饾悶 饾悮饾悰饾惉饾惃饾惀饾惍饾惌饾悶 饾惏饾惃饾惈饾惉饾惌
rainguy41-45, M
[@682246,lulaluboo] Then I spend the rest of the day either sad, pissed, or happy. rarely happy
Not anymore . Venting the rage really helps
There are many times that the past feels so real again... It interferes with my present.
[@536386,Gaiia] 饾惌饾悺饾悮饾惌饾惉 饾悮 饾悰饾悶饾惌饾惌饾悶饾惈 饾惏饾悮饾惒 饾惌饾惃 饾惄饾惍饾惌 饾悽饾惌. 饾悰饾悮饾惉饾悽饾悳饾悮饾惀饾惀饾惒 饾惏饾悺饾悮饾惌 饾悽 饾惁饾悶饾悮饾惂饾惌.馃
Adroit31-35, M
Something very similar where I was being crushed by the past this morning. Sorry to hear that and hope those thoughts fade 馃嵒
reflectingmonkey46-50, M
this is PTSD, there are meditation techniques and also cognitive behavioral therapy that help to get these types of flashback to stop. I was victim of something violent a few years back and after I would get 30 or 40 flashbacks a day, it was horrible but then I learned this meditation technique and after doing it for 2 days the flashbacks were about 90% gone.
[@9310,reflectingmonkey] 饾惏饾悺饾悮饾惌 饾惌饾悶饾悳饾悺饾惂饾悽饾惇饾惍饾悶 饾惉饾惄饾悶饾悳饾悽饾悷饾悽饾悳饾悮饾惀饾惀饾惒, 饾悵饾惃 饾惒饾惃饾惍 饾惁饾悽饾惂饾悵 饾悘饾悓饾悽饾惂饾悹 饾惁饾悶?
reflectingmonkey46-50, M
[@682246,lulaluboo] sure, I'll Pm you
I can't read a single letter, but based on others reactions reactions, I'm so sorry that some men are so d@mn crappy!
[@682246,lulaluboo] I'm very very glad you did vent and shared with us. I haven't had anything that bad, but in some ways my dad was/is a control freak. Which I love the man, but at times he makes things extremely difficult for those around him... but you have to know when to get away and stay away, even when all you want is a hug or approval or something else. You know you have to stay strong and do what's best for you.

From studying / experience depression in my life, I've learned that humans our social creatures and there is something mentally and emotionally healing about physically talking out loud and not holding it all in. Some say even talking to themselves, help. I think a lot of people love talking on the phone for that reason, those studies say in person is best as you can see facial expressions.

Heck, I enjoyed venting my frustrations to my neighbors Golden Retriever, who just wanted to be petted all day lol, but she was an amazing listener, as I talked.

Sadly there are a lot of us that are sad and alone, and need to work on different ways for us to vent, mentally and emotionally heals, and comfort each other and feel much better.

Please feel free to vent to me if you ever need someone to chat with. Hopefully you can feel free to vent and heal and find good and positive ways to vent and feel better :)
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lovelywarpedlemon26-30, F
Daisy5051-55, F
I have PTSD and emdr therapy helped
[@485257,Daisy50] yeeah, I want to try that.

Also nuerofeedback

Damn corona!!
WillaKissing56-60, T
[@485257,Daisy50] Been to countless hours of therapy and it does help greatly. Out of it I developed my self recognition to triggers, and my own personal therapy too.
WillaKissing56-60, T
My PTSD is different than yours. For me triggers can be places, people, settings, sites, sounds, or odors.

Example: Things like babies breath used to be adorable to me, but after doing CPR on an 18 month old and having it die in my hands. Now the odor of babies breath has different trigger to my senses.

I shoot guns and hunt, but when around cities and I hear gunfire I snap into the: Where is it coming from and where are the threats and how do I take them out..

I know the smell of dead human beings rotting, burning, and decaying flesh. What human blood smells and tastes like misted in the air.

Burning raw oil, tires, and vehicles are all distinct triggers.

Explosions have been come so commonly identifiable to me with out ever seeing them go off; that I can pretty much tell what caused them.

Seeing some one assaulted, belittled, or humiliated sets off a terrible desire to take out the aggressor(s).

So when these triggers hit me with the sites, cents, sounds, odors, or situations. I have to stop and breath deeply assessing the situations immediately and it always boils in my mind
in seconds down to threat or no threat; along with all the ways to take the threat out. That is when I just leave and walk away. I retreat back to my farm and take a walk in the woods or set for hours in the woods watching the wild life. While doing so I relive so many accounts of war and life and death saved, lost, and taken. This does not settle the warrior in me, so then I plot projects that need done or accomplished. I get up and I go to work on those farm projects building fence, building a barn, mowing, digging ditches, building a new home here for myself, tending forestry improvements, cutting firewood and the like to work out my PTSD without harming anyone. And from the on set to the thinking and outlet I talk with God; my lost comrades, and my son I lost in the Army. I usually de-escalate myself in a day or two or three when the project has worn me down from the old injuries and 11 major surgeries I have been through because of my military and civilian service. Then I rest for one to three days time, and to complete my circle of self heeling I dress as Willa to see beauty where I only have seen tragedy and suffering. this completes my healing cycle.

So yes for you Lula going back to work makes perfect sense to me, perfect indeed. Also why I am still alone and lonely to this day.
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WillaKissing56-60, T
[@682246,lulaluboo] Thank you. Your post and our friendship sparked a release, and thank you.
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