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I Lost Someone Important to Me

I hate all the soft terms for it. My grandad didn't 'pass away', I didn't 'lose' him; he died. Pure and simple. That was on Wednesday, 5th July 2017. Two days ago. And although I was there when it happened, and I was sobbing so much, I felt so much grief when they took off the machines and I saw him flatline, now I feel nothing. Except it isn't nothing, it isn't the numbness that a lot of people feel. It's literally that I just don't feel sad. I feel all other emotions, I'm completely normal. I just don't miss him, and I'll be laughing with friends at school and forget he ever existed. I'm not sure why that is, and I so desperately want to miss him, I don't know why I don't. It's actually scaring me a bit how little I seem to care even though he meant everything to me when he was alive.

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twistedrope · 26-30, M

Pass is how you tell someone else you've lost someone. It's more considerate to others then the word death. My condolences. I hope you can outlive him and do him proud.

loveyourselfalways00 · 22-25, F

@twistedrope: I guess so. I suppose the more considerate terms just make me more emotional so I prefer the harsher terms. And thank you, he was 77 and had an alcohol problem, so hopefully!

IWasCallingYaLarry · 26-30, M

I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my grandpa in early 2015. Lost my grandma 10 years before that. My grandma's death was a lot harder on me and I remember crying a lot in school and my entire class made a card for me.

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IWasCallingYaLarry · 26-30, M

@loveyourselfalways00 I guess. Btw if you ever need a friend to talk to, message me. Okay <3 ?

loveyourselfalways00 · 22-25, F

@IWasCallingYaLarry aw totally thank you so much, you too always x

IWasCallingYaLarry · 26-30, M

@loveyourselfalways00 Message me if you want right. Now. Up to you <3

SW-User

I'm so sorry, my condolences

loveyourselfalways00 · 22-25, F

@KindChanny: Thank you

approachingmyexpirationdate · 61-69, M

He would probably be saddened if you were still crushed. And happy to know y9u wish he was still there. Perhaps thinking about him when you see something familiar. That's the best memorial. Think of a missing one and smile.

loveyourselfalways00 · 22-25, F

@approachingmyexpirationdate yes, this is so true. Whenever I see porridge or shortbread I think of him! And it was my birthday recently, it was weird not being surprised that he remembered my birthday & sent a card - because he couldn't possibly remember

silkandlace · 46-50, M

It's ok, you can't take it all in at once

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silkandlace · 46-50, M

@loveyourselfalways00: take it as it comes; yesterday surely isn't the "grieving time" your body needs; it's a shock, even if you watched him flatline; relax and prepare for it,

SW-User

@loveyourselfalways00: my ex father in law died in the hospital 7 yrs ago,my at the time 7 yrs waS really close to him, it took her one year to accept he was gone. Today's she's 14 and has a pic of them, him and her as screen saver in her cell. He was a big part of her life

loveyourselfalways00 · 22-25, F

@silkandlace: Thank you, I really do feel as though I need to let something out but it just won't come.
@KindChanny: That really sucks, I hope you both got through it okay, it's wonderful that she was so close even at that age though you know?

ticklerguy · M

Know how ya feel...My Dad had a stroke and now he's gone

loveyourselfalways00 · 22-25, F

@ticklerguy that really fucking sucks, my condolences <3

ticklerguy · M

@loveyourselfalways00 Thanks,My Condolences To You Too :*

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