Grief Therapy

[quote]a dude on here told me I should be ashamed of myself because others are more deserving of help.[/quote]
Goodness me. Deep as a mud puddle.

I'm so sorry. How long ago was it? Sometimes pain is so deep that everything else all around you is completely trivial. I only have a little space here to type, and I almost don't want to say anything other than acknowledge that what you're going through is completely overwhelming. Because anything else i say will sound so disconnected and far away from where you are right now.

Only that you'll have these bad days, maybe many of them. But you will get through. You will feel joy again. You will have brilliant days, things you'll be so glad about. All this. And what I'm saying probably seems pointless right now. That's ok. Just know it's true, because others have been there before you. Grief counselling can help - you probably know there are stages, but they're all over place rather than sequential. What it means is that most of the advice about how to process things won't make sense until you're ready for that. No-one knows what you're going through like you do. I hope you can find someone who can just sit with you. Walk with you through it, without judgement, without trying to solve everything.

Grief can become all consuming for some of us. There is nothing to be ashamed of, and you certainly are not alone in this.

Therapy can certainly help, I hope you can find the strength to keep searching for help, even virtually.

I've had a bit of grief set back in my own life of late and will also be on that search since I didn't care for my last therapist.

Good luck!

The person who said you should be ashamed is full of crap and obviously has never lost a spouse. It is a dramatic event that turns your world upside down. As I told you the other day I have been in your shoes after losing my wife. I will offer again to be someone you can talk to if you want.

Grief is a difficult emotion to deal with. Try looking into teletherapy. A close family member is a psychiatrist and she has been doing many of her consults online due to the coronavirus. Many psychiatrists have taken on pro bono cases to deal with the increased stress many people are seeing. Please try reaching out again for your sake and the sake of your loved one.

Tell him to go fuck himself!!! You are doing your best. 😡

The timing of Rod's death hasn't really helped you because you don't have access to many of the things that can help with grief.

Are there any telephone counselling services that you might be able to call to have someone to just listen through how you are feeling right now??? They may be able to get a therapist that you can talk to over the phone or something...

A lot of people here say things just for the sake of being heard,despite their opinion being the result of oral defecation .
You are grieving. And it is okay to feel like that. When you lose someone very close to you ,a loved one,you grieve them forever. Your pain is nothing anyone can imagine. It is yours. But it is not unshared. All I can say is,time does help.
Hang on there. 🖤

Everyone experiences grief differently. And if people don't like your posts, screw them. Plenty of other things to read here. Do whatever you need to do.