Do you ever feel like you “don’t want to be here anymore”? When I say “here” I mean here in life; existing. I feel like I’m wasting time. How do I

Make something more important than you and then care for it. Really care for it till you fell it needs you to survive then see to it. And when you get that I don't care feeling maybe you'll fell you can't waste time thinking like this because of you want to care for.
I hope this makes sense or else I'm gonna look like an asshole. The reality is tough and it takes balls to make it. And you know you can you just don't 'think' you want to.
I'll be available to cuss or out to shut up fair enough?