it's better to die than to be all alone.
What else can I do when my own family, best friend and close friends and relatives left me to rot when I needed them the most. I am so down.
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notaregularguy · 26-30, M
I don't know how I should do that. I am very weak and unstable mentally and am clinically depressed and broken.
blueumbrella · 31-35, F
@notaregularguy: People always come and go. They are not given to us. People are with us in our journey upto a certain extent, no one is going to walk with you forever, and if you expect that from them, expectations will hurt. Don't expect anything from people, just enjoy their company but don't expect they will be there when you need them.
notaregularguy · 26-30, M
rckt148 · 61-69, M
you reinvent yourself and you move on
I have been there a few times ,
Mom ,My Kids ,My Girl ,everyone was lying to me
letting me kill myself holding a sinking ship together
it put me in a very dark and lonely place for 2 yrs
but i made it ,,and I am getting old ,used up and in pain
but July 4th I am going to rock my home town out
and after that ,why knows ,
but I am someone and so are you ,
I am going to go meet new people and figure out where to go from here
but one things is for sure ,I am not ready to give up and be a quitter
Need someone to talk to ,I am willing to listen ,
but want to die is a quitters talk and I have been there
anyone who says its bravery is an idiot ,
NO ONE knows for sure what comes next ,NO ONE
but I do know I would have cheated myself our of a good life when at 34 I tried to end my life
I have faced more pain and heart break ,betrayal ,
but the good still out weighed the bad ,,,
and I'm not close to done yet
hang in there and do not entertain the death stuff ,,
it has a way of convincing you
I am sure someone loves you ,but you can't see
all you see it the pain and loss ,
believe it or not ,there is a reason for that
I have been there a few times ,
Mom ,My Kids ,My Girl ,everyone was lying to me
letting me kill myself holding a sinking ship together
it put me in a very dark and lonely place for 2 yrs
but i made it ,,and I am getting old ,used up and in pain
but July 4th I am going to rock my home town out
and after that ,why knows ,
but I am someone and so are you ,
I am going to go meet new people and figure out where to go from here
but one things is for sure ,I am not ready to give up and be a quitter
Need someone to talk to ,I am willing to listen ,
but want to die is a quitters talk and I have been there
anyone who says its bravery is an idiot ,
NO ONE knows for sure what comes next ,NO ONE
but I do know I would have cheated myself our of a good life when at 34 I tried to end my life
I have faced more pain and heart break ,betrayal ,
but the good still out weighed the bad ,,,
and I'm not close to done yet
hang in there and do not entertain the death stuff ,,
it has a way of convincing you
I am sure someone loves you ,but you can't see
all you see it the pain and loss ,
believe it or not ,there is a reason for that
Jakey75 · 61-69, M
You should make new friends
Deadcutie · 18-21, F
Did they? Or did you leave them?
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notaregularguy · 26-30, M
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rckt148 · 61-69, M
@notaregularguy: there are a lot of us here who were just like you .
I found EP out of desperation ,I googled "In desperate need of a new best friend "and it directed me to Ep
And do not think my age makes me unaware of what young people face
I do have Grandkids who are teens who say the same thing ,until I tell them about my teen years ,and putting up with 2 teen girls as a single Dad ,,I have 4 kids
now i am a single Dad to a 9 yr old ,who lives with drunks and drug addicts
so I have to teach him to be wiser then they are
I only allow him to stay there because taking him from his Mom might be the end of her ,she stays clean and sober when he is home ,she at least holds off on the party until the weekend when he is with me ,or she knows I will take him
I am alone ,a lot ,,in severe physical pain ,I have a bone disease and PTSD from my childhood ,,
this is a link we used to give out as volunteers on EP ,,
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
yea ,I found new friends and went on to helping others like I was ,some you might know in my friends
anyway ,Check it out ,,scroll down to the menu ,
I am told some of the resources are pretty good ,
I found caring people and that saved me ,I never needed the link
I found EP out of desperation ,I googled "In desperate need of a new best friend "and it directed me to Ep
And do not think my age makes me unaware of what young people face
I do have Grandkids who are teens who say the same thing ,until I tell them about my teen years ,and putting up with 2 teen girls as a single Dad ,,I have 4 kids
now i am a single Dad to a 9 yr old ,who lives with drunks and drug addicts
so I have to teach him to be wiser then they are
I only allow him to stay there because taking him from his Mom might be the end of her ,she stays clean and sober when he is home ,she at least holds off on the party until the weekend when he is with me ,or she knows I will take him
I am alone ,a lot ,,in severe physical pain ,I have a bone disease and PTSD from my childhood ,,
this is a link we used to give out as volunteers on EP ,,
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
yea ,I found new friends and went on to helping others like I was ,some you might know in my friends
anyway ,Check it out ,,scroll down to the menu ,
I am told some of the resources are pretty good ,
I found caring people and that saved me ,I never needed the link