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I Am a Recovering Alcoholic

The holidays have a way of making me want to get smashed...I dont know if its just the stress of my kids running around trapped in the house all day or the pressure to cook the perfect dessert and then have to chat with my family about work or the kids school...it all creates such a crippling anxiety in me that grows and grows and half way through the meal I am craving any type of alcohol to take the edge off. It makes me angry with myself...I hate that after almost 3 years sober I still crave that. When I am overwhelmed that is still what I want to make myself "feel better". I dont want to let myself or my family down...but my God after the exhausting and long day that I have had a glass of wine sounds glorious.
EmmyG1205
31-35, F
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Lostpoet · M
I almost left with twelve pack under my arms today. I'll be three years in a month.
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Lostpoet · M
@EmmyG1205 I'm the same I go to the gym a lot and I read self help books to try to keep my focus.
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EmmyG1205 · 31-35, F
@Lostpoet I try to remember how shitty being hungover feels too, God I dont miss being hungover AT ALL.
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dubkebab · 51-55, M
@EmmyG1205 these are all valid techniques Check it out,we have got some decent support going on here.Lots of wisdom in your methods,MrKaramozov.
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SW-User
I've made it over 11 years.

Today..I'm missing the feeling of no pain.
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THEJAKOFHEARTZ · 46-50, M
I think staying sober is one of the hardest things to be able to do in life. You should be proud of yourself staying on the right path and resisting the temptation.
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dubkebab · 51-55, M
The holidays tend to make me uptight and thirsty a bit even after over 12 years of continuous sobriety... But when I ride the emotions out and reflect on my,ahem-'progress' I KNOW I am better off having not taken a drink today. What sounds glorious and relaxing to a normal person will have me right back to self-destruction and insanity if I choose to indulge.So,yeah-you are not alone."this too shall pass"
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EmmyG1205 · 31-35, F
@dubkebab You just described me perfectly. And 12 years?? Thats such an incredible accomplishment.
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dubkebab · 51-55, M
@EmmyG1205 well,that last trip to the county slammer turned out to be the charm for me,heh heh. But seriously,I have achieved quite a bit in these last few years. Thanks for talking about this here,I has getting a bit riled at some of our dinner guests today.hmph-people.
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Jen92 · 31-35, F
Hang in there sister, one day at a time. Or one hour at a time, or 1 minute at a time.
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Tatsumi · 31-35, M
I feel you. Just try to remember what comes after that glass of wine. Then after the next and the next.

Do you go to meetings?
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EmmyG1205 · 31-35, F
@Tatsumi I havent been to a meeting in a couple of years
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trackman11 · 61-69, M
I’ve never been through this but congratulations on your three years and I am sorry the holidays are so difficult.
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beastmaster · 46-50, M
This time of year seems to be the [c=#BF0000][b]worst[/b][/c] for us who suffer from anxiety and etc.
You must just try taking every moment minute after minute and etc.
Try being around / talking to friends and etc who you are close too, who will be able to make you feel better.

I wish you well🌹
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whowasthatmaskedman · 70-79, M
Thats what sponsors and meetings are about. Go!
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dubkebab · 51-55, M
@whowasthatmaskedman there are alcathons running strong tonight too.
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BlueRain · F
It’s not worth it. Ones turns to two turns to three.
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ozgirl512 · 26-30, F
Holidays are stressful... Be strong and ask for help
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Butterflykisses24 · 51-55, F
Good you quit
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