I Am a Recovering Alcoholic

The holidays have a way of making me want to get smashed...I dont know if its just the stress of my kids running around trapped in the house all day or the pressure to cook the perfect dessert and then have to chat with my family about work or the kids school...it all creates such a crippling anxiety in me that grows and grows and half way through the meal I am craving any type of alcohol to take the edge off. It makes me angry with myself...I hate that after almost 3 years sober I still crave that. When I am overwhelmed that is still what I want to make myself "feel better". I dont want to let myself or my family down...but my God after the exhausting and long day that I have had a glass of wine sounds glorious.

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Lostpoet · M

I almost left with twelve pack under my arms today. I'll be three years in a month.

EmmyG1205 · 31-35, F

@Lostpoet That is amazing that you didnt give in though. My 3 year is January 20.

Lostpoet · M

@EmmyG1205 December 31

EmmyG1205 · 31-35, F

@Lostpoet What are some things that help you say no when you are feeling overwhelmed and really want it?

dubkebab · 51-55, M

@EmmyG1205 jan 18th here-just after my near fatal christmas eve drug OD !

Lostpoet · M

@EmmyG1205 idk honestly how I stay away. I've never wanted to be a drunk and I started doing things that I told myself I would never do, like drinking and driving. I just always remind myself that I want the dream I have in my head and if I drink, it goes away.

EmmyG1205 · 31-35, F

@Lostpoet yeah alcohol makes me feel invincible and I did all sorts of shit I never thought I would be capable or willing to do...I remind myself I have so much to loose now and most days that helps me stay on this narrow little tightrope that I am walking but some days I feel like nothing will be able to keep me balanced.

Lostpoet · M

@EmmyG1205 I'm the same I go to the gym a lot and I read self help books to try to keep my focus.

EmmyG1205 · 31-35, F

@Lostpoet I try to remember how shitty being hungover feels too, God I dont miss being hungover AT ALL.

dubkebab · 51-55, M

@EmmyG1205 these are all valid techniques Check it out,we have got some decent support going on here.Lots of wisdom in your methods,MrKaramozov.