I Am a Recovering Alcoholic

The holidays have a way of making me want to get smashed...I dont know if its just the stress of my kids running around trapped in the house all day or the pressure to cook the perfect dessert and then have to chat with my family about work or the kids school...it all creates such a crippling anxiety in me that grows and grows and half way through the meal I am craving any type of alcohol to take the edge off. It makes me angry with myself...I hate that after almost 3 years sober I still crave that. When I am overwhelmed that is still what I want to make myself "feel better". I dont want to let myself or my family down...but my God after the exhausting and long day that I have had a glass of wine sounds glorious.

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dubkebab · 51-55, M

The holidays tend to make me uptight and thirsty a bit even after over 12 years of continuous sobriety... But when I ride the emotions out and reflect on my,ahem-'progress' I KNOW I am better off having not taken a drink today. What sounds glorious and relaxing to a normal person will have me right back to self-destruction and insanity if I choose to indulge.So,yeah-you are not alone."this too shall pass"

EmmyG1205 · 31-35, F

@dubkebab You just described me perfectly. And 12 years?? Thats such an incredible accomplishment.

dubkebab · 51-55, M

@EmmyG1205 well,that last trip to the county slammer turned out to be the charm for me,heh heh. But seriously,I have achieved quite a bit in these last few years. Thanks for talking about this here,I has getting a bit riled at some of our dinner guests today.hmph-people.