Where am I going?

Feels like I’m going down the wrong path no matter how much I try. I know this contracting job is only temporary, but it’s something that makes me feel like I have more control over my schedule and life. I am trying to make more time to do the things I love…but it took me too long to get to this point. My mind is still clouded, and I have yet to figure out how to approach my goal. Another problem I’m having is the job doesn’t have enough hours available even though it says I can work 40 hours/week. But even though I can’t get all those hours, I feel a bit of relief that I have more time on my hands. So maybe I should just take that time to work on my escape from working for other people. I mean, I work for myself since I can make my own schedule, but at the same time, I’m not completely in control of what I’m doing. I’m still not completely satisfied. My goal is to be a musician and writer…not a customer service professional. It’s time to break free…once I have my plan in place. I hate feeling so unstable, so late in life. It’s one of the worst feelings.