This sounds all too familiar. Write, it's one of my favorite outlets of expression and connection. Some times, I write things that make me wonder where I even got it from.
Although, shame on me lately for losing my writing touch.
When I was younger, I used to copy other people and become them, absorbing their personality.
No worries... everyone does that too some extend. It's part of the human condition. You want diffrent ideas? Read a book by someone that chalenges your vieuwpoints. Just watch out that you don't break yourself. There is some pretty extreme literature out there.
@Kwek00 Yeah, but I would do that to get attention. There were girls at my school much shyer than I am, and they were getting more attention than me, so I directed the attention to me by being the girl’s personality so I would get attention. There were girls at my school asking about my personality. They asked if I was ‘shy’, but I flat out said ‘no’ ‘I’m not shy!’. In Kinder I was told I was too quiet and needed to be heard since I talked like a mouse and still do. It’s hard to hear my voice which sounds like mumbling.
I’m an introvert.
And when I wanted attention, I did what I could to gain it. This only happened in school settings or during public when I threw myself on the floor especially when I was carried by my parents to have people notice me. I wanted strangers’ attention.
@MangoMegalodon Well, I'm not the person to talk too for that issue. But you are supposed to go through a process of trial and error, till you find a way to get into a position that feels good too you and others like you for. Good luck.