What Is Wrong With Me?
I have a recital next week that I'm not fully memorized on and I'm performing for studio class today. There's a quiz first thing in the morning today that I'm not so ready for and I'm missing assignments in the class. Every year it's the same thing - everything falling over me crashing around me near the end and I'm so close. But why don't I have discipline! I'm addicted to Youtube and videogames. I'll admit, porn too. The last person I told that to was my smallgroup leader in highschool and he never talked to me again. I'm such a lousy and embarrassingly awful failure in all of these ways. I'm getting really sick and tired of being me, wanting to change amd stop my life from crumbling down around me, but the motivation is not there.