I do not want to care

I am trying not to care. Trying. It still hurts, badly. So I must still care. But it hurts. It hurts so badly I vomit! I’ve started bleeding. My nose, at first. Then I started coughing blood. I don’t want to care anymore. Every time I wake up, now, I have to vomit. Blood and bile. I want to slash up my wrists right now. I’d rather worry about bleeding out than worry about you!