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Oh no. I just want to cry for help

I woke up this morning and immediately started crying. I cried for a while until I started vomiting. I haven’t eaten since early yesterday and if it was up to me I wouldn’t have eaten at all. The heaves were painful, the bile tasted nasty. My hearts going to give out if I don’t fry my brains first
Sometimes we make big mistakes and sometimes we have to pay big for those mistakes.

I think it's likely most of us here over 25 have had our hearts broken just as shattered as yours is. Unless you refuse to face the music by not accepting the payment you have to make, the vast majority of the time, broken hearts are not fatal. They feel fatal, but they're not.

So weep and whine and vomit for a bit, then man up and get on with life. If you can't fix that mistake and often you can't, you have learned something valuable and will probably not make the same mistake twice.
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Miram · 31-35, F
I'd talk to your wife if I could.
Miram · 31-35, F
@Knucklez That's the hardest part besides overcoming separation anxiety. The anxiety you are feeling now is something She will experience and she will observe you even if she wants "no contact". As much as I hate to admit it initially she does feel the relief after expressing wanting to give up on the relationship. She is normal person and her action is out of desperation, and yes selfish but she needed it.

You have to change the things in you pushing her away. And you have to work on yourself and your life. You are already willing and that's half the path. People are attracted to those that make them feel secured and good.

It is not over.
Miram · 31-35, F
@Knucklez Not yours, annastasia's. The first was that you are no longer married.
Knucklez · 31-35, M
I see that now@Miram
Elegy · 46-50
Is this viral or emotional?
Elegy · 46-50
@Anonymouslyyours86 I don't know enough to respond...
Anonymouslyyours86 · 36-40, F
@Elegy his ex wife does and he does, and he's wants help from the mess he has caused for himself and he blames himself for ruining his marriage he just said it
Elegy · 46-50
@Anonymouslyyours86 That is a very broad explanation that only leaves more questions I don't have the time or inclination to ask. I'm pretty sure either way my response would amount to 'get busy living or get busy dying' and 'I'm sorry for your pain'.
SW-User
You’ll probably be put on an IV drip if you starve yourself
Knucklez · 31-35, M
I don’t care what they do to me. They have to find me first @SW-User
SW-User
Hang in there. I hope you feel better soon
Knucklez · 31-35, M
Thank you@SW-User
thepreposterouspanda · 36-40, M
What's going on man? If you need someone to talk to, I'm around. :)
thepreposterouspanda · 36-40, M
@Knucklez Have you ever tried any deep breathing techniques? That's one of the things that helped me stop drinking, and still helps with my anxiety to a big degree.
Knucklez · 31-35, M
No and I don’t know any@thepreposterouspanda
thepreposterouspanda · 36-40, M
@Knucklez All right, this is the way to do it. Breathe in 4 seconds through your nose, hold the air for 4 seconds, and then breathe out of your mouth like you're blowing through a straw and do it slowly. Just keep repeating the pattern until you feel more calm. :)

I find it helps if I close my eyes and visualize the numbers as I do it too!
Ghosting · 26-30
Sounds like my first week-month of college I was excessively depressed I threw up bile every morning and I wasn’t eating well. My face looked horrible ans I just slept all the time.
Anonymouslyyours86 · 36-40, F
are you pregnant?
Anonymouslyyours86 · 36-40, F
@Knucklezoh why?
Knucklez · 31-35, M
I ruined my marriage of 7 years @Anonymouslyyours86
Anonymouslyyours86 · 36-40, F
@Knucklez well live and let learn for your next relationship
SW-User
What did you do to feel so guilty ?
Knucklez · 31-35, M
I’ve destroyed my 7 year marriage @SW-User
SW-User
@Knucklez Ok, but what did you do ? Maybe there’s a way to fix it
Knucklez · 31-35, M
Years of abusive tendencies, explosive behaviour, and a suicidal life style@SW-User

 
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