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I Was Raped and Feel Scared All the Time

Buried Underground... 4 Months. 4 months and 4 days since the assault. It still feels like the first day for her She can still remember every detail of that horrible day. She remembers how she cried herself to sleep that night. She cried until there was nothing left. The night was so dark. It was as dark as death itself. Every part of her ached. Her legs, her shoulders, her head, but most of all, her heart. Never in her life has she ever felt so empty. So lifeless. Dead weight. Dead mind. Dead heart. Dead. It was the only word that she would let into her mind. She didn't want to live with what was to come. No, she didn't want to live with the aftermath of it all; not the police, the detectives, the nightmares, the guilt. She is no longer a person. Her body was taken from her and so was her soul. The monster sucked it out of her like a vacuum. She is nothing now, just a shadow in the darkness; a ghost. She is nothing real. The monster turned her into a zombie. He left her there lifeless; turned her into a rag doll and all it took was just one touch. One touch was all it took to kill her. She goes to sleep with this every night, while she drowns herself in tears, and wraps what is left of her in a blanket, she shuts out the world and buries herself underground.
Rambo911
I am not a direct victim, but I have dealt indirectly with a victim that was my closest friend, her ordeal began as a date with a guy she deeply admired, she dreamed of the day that he would ask her to go on a date; she was a freshman at the Auburn University, he a huge Football player; she has pledged his fraternity and became a little sister!
What happened to her has happened to others, yet she was so small and petite, never had dated that much, and here she was over 200 miles from home, majoring in psychology, she chose her major as she loved people and desired to use her degree as a career to do just that...help those that were facing depression, those with PTSD, etc.
She finally was asked to go out with this football player that she had hoped would ask her out; everything went great until toward the end of the date he took her parking near a river bank outside of a park...she thought since he was so nice at the Frat house and at the University that he would be safe to park with and just talk and get to know each other...however once they were alone he totally changed into another individual, he started putting the moves on her, and she resisted him telling him she wasn't that type of girl, that she only wished at this point to get to know him more! Then is when he man handled her, pinning her down on the seat and then pulled her literally from the car onto the ground outside the car, he tore her clothes off and when he finished raping and sodomizing her he drove off and left her crying on the ground; this is how I met this young lady; I was an Auburn Police Officer and was on patrol when I came across this small young lady walking up the gravel road from where this occurred, she was in shock, bleeding from between her legs, and was completely nude; I hurried to grab a blanket from our OB kit in the trunk of my police unit, wrapped her up and put her in the Police car and notified our detective division for assistance as I knew she was a victim of a crime.
That night, she was carried via ambulance from my car to the hospital with a female detective riding in said ambulance with her...an investigation ensued, we were able to obtain from the female detective the primary location of the assault and rape that took place, her torn clothing was located and the crime scene preservation was put into place to preserve evidence that would be needed for court once the suspect was located, arrested, charged and incarcerated!
We were able to get the suspects name, immediately got a warrant for his arrest and served said warrant and arrested him, transported him to jail and processed him into jail for a assigned preliminary hearing to allow the judge to hear the preliminaries and schedule a jury trial!
All of this took place, and the suspect was found guilty of Sodomy, Rape and Assault in the 2nd degree; he was sent to prison, but this young lady went through in-depth counseling, this happened in 1980 and this young lady had to delay her education, and took her over five years to ever get to where she could begin her College Degree and she decided to return online, and graduate at the end of her degree! She did get that degree, and due to my finding her that fateful night she chose me as a friend, one she could trust, one that would not take advantage of her and understood her emotional strain she had faced and I became her sounding board, and the one to offer her comfort and today, we live in different states, she is married with two children and we still talk long distance!
An ordeal such as this takes a very long time to cope with...for some, they can't ever find that peace to cope and put this behind them ; some commit suicide, and others learn to cope and have those in their life that understands and are always there for them; coping is never easy nor is it ever something you forget completely but with help, one does move on and make a life for themselves!
maystribe
i completely understand its how i feel but you cant give up im not much help i know but im here listening and caring
digndurt36
I'd kick his FN ass and treat him like a red headed step child!! Message me hun
LifeIsSoGood14
Those rapers should be killed
TheMexicanRocker
Wow :O I'm speechless

 
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