You were a victim! Still are! Nothing was your fault. The man was demented. I hope he's dead. NOW is the time to deal with this so you can STOP feeling any responsibility for what HE DID TO YOU! I was molested by sick males (redundant) from age 6-11. I didn't tell till I was 30. I don't know how or why but, on some level I've always known I was the victim. Don't let him make you feel guilty...the predators know kids will. SAY IT!!!! DON'T GIVE HIM ONE MORE SECOND OF YOUR LIFE ...it will have a big, negative impact on the rest of your life. SAY IT! (i'm 300 years old...trust me)