I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

It bothers me that there are so many of us. And that at the same time it's something we don't know how to talk to eachother about. And I hate that it follows me in my head still even though I'm almost grown and I'm living a good life. It worries me that in years I'll still have bad dreams or randomly think about it like I do now. And it bothers me that my close friends don't know how to act about it because they never had to go through it or that my boyfriend beats himself up because he doesn't know what to do when I have my lows. I don't think I'll ever understand why.

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Livingwell · 61-69, M

You detailed the issues very well. Many try to help and suggest ways to “fix” the problem. But there isn’t a fix. One just has to “heal”, sometimes with help, sometimes on their own terms. But it’s almost impossible for someone that hasn’t experienced it to understand and not get angry, or feel helpless.

littleblackbird · 26-30, F

@Livingwell Yeah and just after watching people be helpless in how to help I feel bad for talking about it now. Till it burst like this

Livingwell · 61-69, M

@littleblackbird Anyone that cares or loves you sees it as a small price to pay for your happiness. Over time, they too will understand. It’s like a man trying to always fix a woman’s problems when all she wants is for him to listen, to vent. Nothing else. 😊

littleblackbird · 26-30, F

@Livingwell Yeah kind of exactly. My bf feels like there's always something he should do when we talk about it