Were you or anyone you knew a victim of child melestation? 😖

I was a victim.of child melestation. I was in grade 6. We were living in these townhouses. And few doors down was our neighbor who she knew my mom really well. They were relatives. Really religious. She had a husband too was religious. New the holy book back and front. They had two little children. Her husband was a nice man. Or so I assumed. He would take me and my then 3 siblings out to play hide and seek with his kids. And go for long drives. One saterday, off from school me and my sister were invited to play at his house while the wife went to my mothers to hang out. Everything was fun at first until I opened my eyes in this empty room upstairs. My feet were up. I look down and his hands are down my pants. I was so shocked and confused and scared...so many emotions. 😑🙉🙊😳😰😓😶😐..Then when i get up, still trying to grasp on what just happened..almost as if I blacked out..black magic or something...he was in the other room now. He asked woulď you like to play doctor? Me still shoooken, trying to catch my breath respond with a no. Then he answers back with a good.....?!! As if he was testing me?! He was the sicko who threw me unconsious so he could do his sick deed on me! Ya so until this day I haven't told anyone. Not even my own mother. I was afraid she will probably think it is my fault, even as a kid, i had that feeling wow. And there were moments where she will recall the past and say it is my fault..so thank god i didn't tell her that because she would of reminded me of that too. Ya and is no wonder I don't go to anyone is house without feeling so awkward and uncomfortable. And is no wonder i can't pass the friggin driving test. I get so tense. This old instuctor hid on me.. but ya trauma at its worse.