I’m worried that I’m maybe boring to be around

I’m not really that good at being friends or getting too close to people, I used to kinda hide this by being kinda mean, but for obvious reasons I’ve stopped doing that. I’m concerned that my girlf maybe thinks I’m a bit boring 😬. I am really nervous and worry about getting close, I get drunk really easily and do stupid stuff which I think she’s a bit embarrassed about. Sorry I’m venting, I don’t even know what I’m asking here, I think I just needed to write this down.