@JamesBugman thank u!

@Isoloa9ation i applaud your honesty!
Life sux, but we make the most of it..even with dooshbag representatives and state stupidity! Luv ur tinacity, dark humor and sarcasm..can we vote u in for president? Lol luv ur awesomeness! As for kudneys, drink cranberry and water. Even with cancer i am sure it will do well. Prayers n hugs u are amazing!

@CloudAngel80 thank you. I appreciate it very much. Those are words i havent heard much. Encouragement is another one thats strange to hear. Being possitive is weird to me too. There was a time when a smile felt strange to me when id realize i was smiling. That voice inside would scold me, telling me i had nothing to smile about. Idk my life has been unlike ive ever heard of. Almost like i was the sacrificial lamb for those who ment the most to me. So much so, i was honestly happy when they told me i had cancer. Was my way out of an existence that to me didnt belong. That was 2018. Have done nothing about the shit in my body. Cancer is a cash cow for our punkass leaders, heroin too.. but one thing they cant do is break me. Im a fkn warrior and ive withstood their fkn cowards war theyve waged against me and they will lose, already have. 20yrs of hell thrown on me by the ppl closest to me. Its unreal, a few hide, still, wont return a text even. Theyre scared and they should be, but they still slander, send shit ppl and pull the strings in hopes of ending me. But here i am. Ive been meaning to write my life over theblast 2 decades down. Its been quite the little ride through hell.
Ms. Angel, wish I could tell you that its all going to get better. I could, and I pray with all my being that you get a fkn break and can enjoy the rest of your life! Life was supposed to get easier the older we got wasn't it?? Have you thought about maybe going back to school? That's what I was going to do. Do some online tech stuff, like coding or cyber security. Something i can do remotely from an rv.. I got another idea that I can't share here, but it would make someone a shit ton of $!!! Im thinking any bank would jump on it for a small business loan. Im very apprehensive to try, because everything ive tried to better myself with over the last 20yrs has failed... but its going to turn around for me!!! And maybe i can help you and ppl like you who just need something...hope that made sense and you've got to know I didn't open my guts for anything but maybe my story can help someone, somehow... i hate sounding like a victim, because im not...take care all and dont let these fkn cowards steal your soul!!!!

@Isoloa9ation youre not alone in the struggle my friend! You got this!

@CloudAngel80 ok.. you could buy regular oatmeal and brown sugar and bake your own bread 😅

@YoMomma true..very true! Great suggestions

@YoMomma lol, thats funny. $5 left over after bills is only $5.. maybe she can find a way of eating rocks and survive. But even at that, $5 in rocks isnt that many!!!!