Childhood friends

Hey guys just a vent. I just realized how I missed my old classmates. No friends more than friends The ppl who actually makes me happy. Looking back I never realized how Lucky I was, They made me so Complete or something. when pandemic started it got complicated every step. Sure we chatted for months but after that we just moved on with our lives. At first I din't really actually cared, Now that. That's what's haunting me now. I regreted leaving them, we were a group actually. But got separated, Hoping their doin' fine with their lives. I just wished i could turn back time and enjoy those moments every second. I used to remember we would go play tag and hang out after that we would go to seven eleven and purchase Milk Tea, And Will get so exited if someone invites us at a birthday party. Man we would go wild and just have fun. We used to laugh so hard everytime, and we also used to sneak class haha, (I'll never forget those days) Back then we we're not allowed to eat junk foods except only at friday, shitty rule tbh. We'll buy junk foods and eat it after at the back of the school then laugh our ass off, on march. It was declared that school is gonna end early. On the last day of school we played our last tag, We had sooo much fun. After that we said our goodbyes And promised that we should be classmates again next year, haha we also planned to sit beside at the back of the classroom so we could sneak snacks or smthn. I remembered hugging everyone. Said goodbye to the friendly janitor to my Teacher and took one last glanced at my school and left. who knew that was my last time seeing them. Haha now currently, Im just scrolling through our old pics together and remembering the moments then would cry to sleep. Idk but I always dream about them. I would recall the days. The days we're life was easy, Now i just stalk their social media. There's no hope on going back and contact them again, We're strangers now. I would never have that enough courage to do so, I hope i can though. Nicole, Mikaela, Miel, karl, and Zieggy if y'all see this, I just want y'all to know that i Miss yall so much. I hope y'all are doing well in life. And maybe someday y'all will forgive me, Just wishing we could reunite again. Im so pathetic and a coward. Don't really have friends in my current school lol. Either way maybe could eat at seven eleven once in a while.
Oh one last thing, There's no such thing as a bff, There will always be that last laugh, last hug, last having fun, etc. There's always an end at everything. Friends come and go in my experience, You have to be prepared man. Lol im so pathetic rn venting on a website with a bunch of strangers HAHA sorry for the vent guys.