I don't have good news today

I need a miracle. I'm so done to even complain. I don't have anything left to offer to the world. I'm going through a really really rough time with my lungs and I want it all to go away.. God if you are listening to me and there's anything you can do please do it.. I'm done... My 30s are fuking stupid I want to be 20 again.. I can't do this again I'm too weak I'm not a strong person not now anyway..
Excuse my hopelessness..