Ventiiiing

I feel so drained, it's so difficult. I'm so sad about them and I have been trying my best to help but all my efforts are wasted just the second I'm not there. It's okay I'm not asking to appreciate my efforts maybe it's all useless but don't treat me like I'm the worst person you have ever known like I'm the reason why all of this shit is happening. I already feel so fucking ashamed and guilty but I can't just stand there watching you doing it again even thinking about it makes me feel so fucking bad