Today I had a very nihilistic days, a day of nadir

I thought of everything as less. Of my skills, of my being, of my connections, ideas, capabilities, everything. I was doing nothing, being none who deserves nothing in return. A day dipped in desperation and despair. My shadow self dancing on the walls of the room and in my head. Everything I was touching was turning into something less.

I am now at the point of having gained some distance. I'm still feeling unsettled, but at least I can carry myself to think that this is me in a bad day.

💙💦🌊 I miss my sea...