I'm sad today. Are you sad too?

Yesterday he said that he'll meet me when he'll be back to work "tomorrow". Which, is today. I was super excited. I had been covering for him for the days he'd been home. I waited all night at work for it to be morning so that we could finally see eachother. Finally it was 8 a.m. ... i waited and waited....i waited till 9, then I had to leave. I just feel like all I do is wait....
Last week same day, I asked him where he is, that I need to see him before he leaves town. He just told me that there was too much work for him to leave his station, but when a minute later I showed up to the office, he was just sitting in the lounge with everyone else, not at his station. That hurt me, but I pushed it aside, even though deep down it made me feel that he probably doesn't want to be around me...that I'm probably a burden...or probably just....boring. I still left the gifts and cards in his bag. I should have just kept them....but later, he said I have kept him alive. I don't understand. I just really wanted to see him. But for once, I wanted him to ask me "where are you?" instead of the other way round.