Correction I am still fighting however I've brought it into the open fully
Update to my last post.
Through prayer alone I have managed to pull this thing out and I see it's real form. At first I saw nothing then the earwig showed up. Then one morning I saw a shadow next to my bed and then in my inner eye I saw this glowing red eye and that's when I knew that was it. I knew because looking at it jacked my heart rate up and made me nauseous. I prayed and prayed and prayed and cleansed my entire apartment with sage incense. Yesterday was day 2 of the sage cleanse and I kicked it up with protection gregorian chants which ended up making me cry like truly cry. There was something about it that struck a cord within me and I just felt a major release. Last night was by far the worst night this thing this red eye I was able to see with my naked eye in my room floating around by my bed. It makes my chest ache and it makes me feel nauseous and my heart race but I no longer show fear. In every sense of the word it should make me fear but it just makes me fight harder. I drew this thing out of hiding it no longer can hide in the shadows. It causes pressure on top of my head too and sometimes when I close my eyes I can see it but I refuse to give in. I had sleep paralysis last night where in that dream I was in my room and my blankets were thrown off and I was yanked out of bed by my feet. I somehow made it upright and walked in jerking motions like someone paralyzed fighting to walk and move I made it to my real life mother in my dream and was fighting to speak. She led me to the bathroom to the shower and thats when I woke up saying the words help me. I went to bed wearing my scapular now mind you this thing is from 2001. It is a brown scapular which had a plastic casing over our lady of mt. caramel and st.simon stock. I woke up this morning from my alarm and st.simon was sweaty looking and discolored like from moisture damage and there was a small rip in his plastic coating. Our lady was just discolored at the top but no tears. I believe that scapular absorbed something so I didn't have to. I also spotted above my bed hovering this blue light but it didn't make me sick I believe it was divine help. I asked if it was and felt calm enough to go back to sleep for a few more minutes and when I woke again it was gone.
Today was day 3 of the smoke cleansing and even heavier prayer. I went to the store for more incense and lo and behold towards the end of my shopping my chest began to hurt some and I felt sick. Weird I felt fine all day but when I went to go into my car I saw it. In front of me was this red suv who's license plate read redeye3. I had said you have got to be joking me this is too strange to be a coincidence as this is the thing bothering me. Now I have drawn it out into the daylight with prayer. The entire way home I had on chants and I had a reading of psalm 91 because I felt sick being by that car. I found a box of my old stuff that belongs to both my brother and I and have placed more reinforcements into my room. I now have a rosary at each corner of my bed and I am using my brothers scapular since I don't think I should wear my own. This thing is clearly desperate and isn't happy I have drawn it out of hiding. I'm not someone who quits and I will not stop.
I see signs I'm winning. I feel energy tingling and flowing in my body from my feet on the ground or to when I hold my old things. I know it's looking for an opening because I can feel heat sometimes at my root chakra or pressure on my crown or third eye. I will not let it and it's desperate. The scent of lilac filled my car one morning while my windows were up. It was strong and comforting. I see rosaries and crosses an influx of them wherever I go. I saw a liscense plate that read redeemed heading towards me one day. I saw a priest enter a diner I was leaving. We passed one another. I saw blue and green light working in harmony to take away the red I saw in my third eye.
This thing picked the wrong old cat man.
Through prayer alone I have managed to pull this thing out and I see it's real form. At first I saw nothing then the earwig showed up. Then one morning I saw a shadow next to my bed and then in my inner eye I saw this glowing red eye and that's when I knew that was it. I knew because looking at it jacked my heart rate up and made me nauseous. I prayed and prayed and prayed and cleansed my entire apartment with sage incense. Yesterday was day 2 of the sage cleanse and I kicked it up with protection gregorian chants which ended up making me cry like truly cry. There was something about it that struck a cord within me and I just felt a major release. Last night was by far the worst night this thing this red eye I was able to see with my naked eye in my room floating around by my bed. It makes my chest ache and it makes me feel nauseous and my heart race but I no longer show fear. In every sense of the word it should make me fear but it just makes me fight harder. I drew this thing out of hiding it no longer can hide in the shadows. It causes pressure on top of my head too and sometimes when I close my eyes I can see it but I refuse to give in. I had sleep paralysis last night where in that dream I was in my room and my blankets were thrown off and I was yanked out of bed by my feet. I somehow made it upright and walked in jerking motions like someone paralyzed fighting to walk and move I made it to my real life mother in my dream and was fighting to speak. She led me to the bathroom to the shower and thats when I woke up saying the words help me. I went to bed wearing my scapular now mind you this thing is from 2001. It is a brown scapular which had a plastic casing over our lady of mt. caramel and st.simon stock. I woke up this morning from my alarm and st.simon was sweaty looking and discolored like from moisture damage and there was a small rip in his plastic coating. Our lady was just discolored at the top but no tears. I believe that scapular absorbed something so I didn't have to. I also spotted above my bed hovering this blue light but it didn't make me sick I believe it was divine help. I asked if it was and felt calm enough to go back to sleep for a few more minutes and when I woke again it was gone.
Today was day 3 of the smoke cleansing and even heavier prayer. I went to the store for more incense and lo and behold towards the end of my shopping my chest began to hurt some and I felt sick. Weird I felt fine all day but when I went to go into my car I saw it. In front of me was this red suv who's license plate read redeye3. I had said you have got to be joking me this is too strange to be a coincidence as this is the thing bothering me. Now I have drawn it out into the daylight with prayer. The entire way home I had on chants and I had a reading of psalm 91 because I felt sick being by that car. I found a box of my old stuff that belongs to both my brother and I and have placed more reinforcements into my room. I now have a rosary at each corner of my bed and I am using my brothers scapular since I don't think I should wear my own. This thing is clearly desperate and isn't happy I have drawn it out of hiding. I'm not someone who quits and I will not stop.
I see signs I'm winning. I feel energy tingling and flowing in my body from my feet on the ground or to when I hold my old things. I know it's looking for an opening because I can feel heat sometimes at my root chakra or pressure on my crown or third eye. I will not let it and it's desperate. The scent of lilac filled my car one morning while my windows were up. It was strong and comforting. I see rosaries and crosses an influx of them wherever I go. I saw a liscense plate that read redeemed heading towards me one day. I saw a priest enter a diner I was leaving. We passed one another. I saw blue and green light working in harmony to take away the red I saw in my third eye.
This thing picked the wrong old cat man.
56-60, M
