The suicidal thoughts are coming back. I can feel it.

I have literally one person in my life willing to hug me. Not even my own mother will.

I am so sad to hear that. The dog in your profile picture is cute. I love my dog and she loves to give me hugs when I am sad. I bet your dog would love to hug you. It is worth a try. Animals love us no matter what, it is beautiful thing about pets!!!

No, not even the dog is interested. Trust me, I've tried many times, and all to no avail.

Well I am sending hugs to you KiwiDan....MANY MANY HUGS TO YOU FOR AS LONG AS YOU NEED THEM AND WANT THEM🌈

Thank you :)

Anytime sir!!! 💕🌈🏖 If you ever just want to talk please do not hesitate to message me. I am not on here a lot but if I am I would surely chat with you!!!

Had to add the beach cuz it is a happy place for me. What is your happy place?

Thanks. And I don't have a happy place, since everything I enjoy I've been flat out told is a waste of time and money.

Nothing is a waste of time if it makes you happy. People have no right to try and take happiness from you or anyone...try to not let people have that kind of power over you. It took me a long time to figure out that I matter the most and that loving me is important. Now I know in my heart that no one can take that from me. I am really sorry you have so much pain and hurt KiwiDan. It is not fair!!!