What's your reason to stay alive? For real tho.

I love my life. It's taken me a while to get it just the way I want it though.

i don't have much at this stage in my life...i have vices that have cost me people very dear to me..,im not proud of myself or have anyone to really listen...i wake up each day thinking it will be different and trying hard to make it so..,at the end of the day i end up exhausted depressed again...and i go to bed praying it will be better and end up the same day in and day out..,.but every day i wake up with hope that this 'next day' will be better and to try again...

I'm a stupern ass. And I can never give up. It's not written in my DNA. I've always fought life And I always will. And now for the part 9 years my life isn't jus mine anymore. I've taken on the greatest responsibility in my opinion. Being a father/dad/friend/protector/teacher/student

It all comes down to hope. Sometimes, the question does become why should I live, but it's usually why shouldn't I these days.

My dreams.

I just keep hoping that eventually I'll find my footing.
But of course, I never do, and everything is just a vicious cycle and has been for ~9 years now.