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Something in mind!

Today was a hard day. I attended another wedding, and my heart ached. Maybe it's because I wasn't destined to live these moments. Maybe it's because I've gotten older. Maybe it's because I'm not pretty. Maybe it's because I'm sick and no one can put up with me. Another wedding has reopened many deep wounds in my heart. I wonder: am I not a good girl? I'm not like other girls.

Today, Aisha said something my brother always used to say, but today I truly felt its weight. Yes, I'm sick, and my mom and my brother are worn out by me. Today my mom was very unkind, and I felt that she doesn't love me. I remembered something I once heard her say: that I don't have a child and never will. Another time she asked me, "What are you missing that other girls have? A leg? An arm?" I answered, "A mind." She fell silent and said nothing more.

I know I'll be alone for the rest of my life. Sometimes I manage to accept that, and sometimes I cry a great deal. But crying doesn't solve anything, so I have to be strong. I cry for myself at every wedding I attend. But this is life, and these are God's decrees, and I have to trust in them.
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Dear SkyHigh189,

Sweet sister, I read your words and I cried with you. I am so sorry you had to walk through that wedding with so much pain in your heart. 🫂♥

Please hear me. You are not forgotten. When God seems silent, that is often when He is working the most behind the scenes. It is all according to His timing, and His timing is never late. Ecclesiastes 3:11 KJV - He hath made every thing beautiful in his time.

You are a good girl. You are loved. You are not too much.
Sickness does not make you less. Being single does not make you less.

God does not make mistakes. He knit you together on purpose. Psalm 139:14 KJV - I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

I am so sorry for the words that hurt you from your mom. Moms get weary and say things they do not mean. But that does not change what God says about you.

Isaiah 49:15-16 KJV - Can a woman forget her child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee. Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands.

God has not forgotten you. Not for one second! He promised never mind or abandoned us. And he always keeps his word.

And sister, you are not alone. Even when it feels like it.
Psalm 34:18 KJV - The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.
He is sitting with you in the tears. He collects them in His bottle. Psalm 56:8


I know it hurts to go to weddings. I know the questions come. But God’s decrees are not to harm you.

Jeremiah 29:11 KJV - "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil...not to hurt you, but to help you and give you hope and a future!

Please do not give up. You are seen. You are loved. By God, and now by me too. I am praying for you. That God would heal your heart, strengthen your body, and show you how precious you are to Him.

You are not alone.
With love,
Grace
You're so incredibly young... It's pretty common to feel you will be alone forever but life has an interesting way of surprising us. I have a feeling that some of the issues with how you feel about yourself overall have to do with your family and the unhealthy way they seem to speak to you. I hope for your sake that in your future you are able to possibly spend less time with them or even have a space of your own and supportive friends who are more like a family of your own choosing. Sometimes a change of scenery of that kind can do wonders for a person. It will not change everything, but it helps. Good luck. 🙌🏾
Uncfred · 70-79, M
Hang in there honey, your day will come, be assured.
GoFish ·
you're still young and beautiful it will be your turn soon enough
BlueEchoes · M
How come family members be this ruthless. I am sorry
Uncfred · 70-79, M
There is someone for everyone, and your "not pretty enough" is beauty to someone else, so its not just looks that control the heart.

Hang in there young lady, your day will come.
Mudkip · M
The path of others doesn't have to be yours.
TheArchivist · 31-35, M
Ignore the toxic people here

I choose to believe that you won't always be alone

Even if you dont
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@helenoftroy2000 She is venting. Let her.
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CarolZ · 26-30, F
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