Horrible, icky feeling.

It takes being around people to realise how unhinged I am.

This was the second time I was playing with a group, and I realised that I have a lot of unregulated emotions. Laughing too much, grunting too much when I'm mad at myself, exclaiming random Aaaagghhs, making a silly comment on every one of my shots. Giggling with every shot.

In retrospect, the others were quite calm and relaxed, even though there was silly and witty banter among them, and even laughs.

But there is something a bit aggressive about my energy and I don't like it.